If I could

I woke up with this poem in my mind early in the morning about 2 weeks after Conner died.  I knew it was from God.  Notice how every time I address Conner and try to comfort him, he comforts me back with the Father's love.  My mind would not have done that, I would have comforted myself with my sweet boy.  Anyway just wanted to put it on my blog so I can try and keep my stuff together.  

If I could, I would reach my hand up oh so high.  Past the clouds and past the sky.  Through the darkness, up past the stars.  Through the dimensions to where you are.  

If I could, I would hold your hand for just a little while.  The touch and feel of it would make me smile.

If I could, I would tell you just how loved you are.  You would probably say, "I know, it's the greatest love of all, my Father isn't far."

If I could, I would give you my life. However I don't have too, cause His one and only Son already paid the price.

If I could, I would wrap my arms around you and say, "don't worry baby, I am here to stay."  And I bet I know exactly what you would say. "Mama, I know if you could  you would.  But don't worry, you don't have too. Jesus already made the way."